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I’m Scared of Lonely

Have you ever looked at a coconut tree and wondered, why did you grow that way?

No? Well I have. Usually there’s a bunch of them standing tall and mighty, and then you spot the odd one.

Someone recently asked me; what’s it like to be by yourself, in your own company? I answered and said lonely AF. No one wants to be alone or die a lonely old soul. So what if you decided to give love a chance? Instantly, you start thinking of the what ifs and your feet haven’t even hit the ground as yet. What if it actually worked out and changed things? Scary huh?

No one ever wants to talk about it; we always try to put up a front. The world doesn’t need to know how you’re feeling. Hearing someone say that they ‘love’ being in love was a surprise to me. Yes being in love is exciting; yet scary at the same damn time. I see myself as the odd coconut tree. Always searching for another way out, which is totally okay in some cases. I find myself running, putting up walls and guarding my heart, because I’m scared.

What would happen if you broke down the walls of fear, stepped out in faith and try something that excites you? Chances are you can end up loving it or be disappointed, but you’ll never know unless you try. Same rule applies with a lot of situations we face every single day, not just love.

You can’t experience all the awesomeness life has to offer with your heart guarded or half-open.

Stay Fab.

7 comments on “I’m Scared of Lonely

  1. I love everything about this. I actually like my own company. I find a lot of things to do when I’m alone but it could also be because I’m in a stable relationship where I do a lot of things with my partner daily. I guess it’s different for everyone depending on the situation.
    Yes, taking a chance could change things so drastically. Some of us fear change because of the high risk of the outcome being either positive or negative – but we have this one life and we owe it to ourselves to live it to the best that we can. It’s easier said than done though.
    I’m so proud of you for sharing your heart x

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  2. Agreed! One life to live so let’s live it the best we can. I’ve had love gone wrong and in those moments thought it was the worst thing that could happen to me and why me and thought I’d never find another… all the crazy things we tell ourselves. But I wouldn’t trade those moments because I’ve learned so much about myself, what I should not have put up with and more importantly that God was preparing me for something much much better. I love my alone time don’t get me wrong, but to be able to share time and space with someone who truly loves you is amazing. We cannot let fear block our blessing 🙂

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  3. aalexist

    I’m in a long distance relationship and moved to a new country so I experience being alone and spending lots of time with someone. It was through being alone that I found out who I really was without my decisions being influenced by anyone else. But being in love is one of the best feelings in the world. Don’t let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game. ❤️

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